• Missing you doesn’t cover it…

    by  • November 29, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Breaking Up • 2 Comments

    I miss you… Nope that’s not even it…
    I don’t need you or want you… I just miss you…
    I miss our kisses, I miss our hugs, I miss our love.

    Our love, only our to share.

    Let me explain, he left me to see others. A year of nothing but love wasted. I cut. He started bullshit about me and to me. I ignored it. He kept going. I almost dated his cousin till he bitched him out and he backed out. We stayed friends. He started dating my best friend. I ignored it. Still am. I got together with a sweet guy, who’s been through a lot. He starts shit about us. We are holding through.

    Before our fighting as singles, we were friends till your friends filled your head with bullshit and that I’m gonna ‘cock block’ you. My final good bye to you was a hug, crying and asking “Do you every think I can call you mine again?” and your answer, “I hope so baby girl.” Damn i replay it over and over in my head. I know it’ll never happen now though… I wont get back with you… Yes I love you, forever and ever just like I promised just… I cant take our fighting…

    I ponder,
    If you still love me, you act like you hate me. Wanna be with me still. Think about, I know you talk about me… If you want to be friends, I do… If your with my friend to make me mad… Kiss her and shit in front of me so I do have brake downs… It works, I cry everyday I see you with her, even in school…

    Well Bugaboo, I love you forever and always. I write notes to you everyday that I’m never going to actually give to you and I cuddle with my baby Hector Teddy every night, wishing I had you to sing Smother Me, so I can sleep, or tell me one of your storys of us growing old together. You will alwasy be my shining spark and Bugaboo.

    PS. I miss YOU.

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    2 Responses to Missing you doesn’t cover it…

    1. Alisha
      December 28, 2011 at 7:46 pm

      I’ll admit.. this made me cry. I wasn’t expecting to have someone else have a .. situation .. like mine. I cut, ignored him, went through all that shit.. Dated a better guy, than he started more crap about that.. Then I question myself if I could love him again. I hate that every time the answer is yes, yes, yes. I have a blue teddy bear.. and we have our song Your Guardian Angel that I humm myself to all night.. He was everything to me, and even though he has NO clue.. he always will bee on my mind..


    2. Abbie
      August 5, 2013 at 11:25 am

      You know I wrote this never wanting to look at it again and two years later I see your comment and it brought tears to my eyes. I really hope things got better or cleared up for you. He still won’t talk to me if someone brings me up he says who like he doesn’t have an idea to who I am.



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