I’m so dumb! I just want to start off by saying I love you with my heart. I’ve known you my whole life, and I can honestly say you’re the most genuine person I have ever met. You’re perfect in every way. You make me die laughing, you’re sweet, you’re handsome, you have goals in life, you are caring, you are tolerant, you are a nerd, and you are loving. You’re the funniest person I have ever met and I love you for that. No one will ever understand how I feel for you. You have always been there for me and I could never convince myself I was good enough for you. I’ve always loved you and I’m almost positive you’ll linger in my heart forever.
The saddest thing of all is I know you love me too. You love me, and I love you but it’s too late. We were both too scared to harm the friendship we love. I could sit with you all day playing mario kart and fifa without wishing to be somewhere else. You have someone new and I have someone. It breaks my heart because this is all my fault. I shouldn’t have second guessed my feelings. You’re the boy for me and I’m the girl for you. I couldn’t think of anyone else I’d want to laugh my days away with.
We talked the other night. It was bittersweet. You asked me why I never went after you. It broke my heart because I couldn’t express exactly what I wanted to say. You were sweet, you were gentle and you told me you loved me without saying it. I wanted to kiss you, but it was out of the question. We stopped, you walked away, and we both went to bed with unfinished thoughts. But when I woke up, you found your way back to me, laying so innocently. It made me happy. I know you care about me.
I’ll never forgive myself for leaving you alone and heartbroken when you needed me and when I wanted you too, but I was so fucking scared. It’s true, you don’t realize what you’ve got until it’s gone. Hearing you’re happy with another girl makes me happy for you, but we both know our feelings for each other will always be there. I just wish I could’ve made it happen when it was easier. I don’t care how long I have to wait. You’re worth every minute of it. And no matter where life takes us, you’ll always be in my heart. Even if it’s like this.