To my best friend that I hurt,
I want to start by saying I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything that happened two years ago… We promised each other that boys could never ruin our friendship but sure enough, they did.
I know that I was unreasonable. It was spur of the moment, and you might not have known, but I was still so in love with him. Even though it had been seven months after we broke up, I loved him. Trust me… I tried so so hard to get over him. I tried everything but nothing worked, so I finally concluded that I would just let myself love him because it was so easy.
But of course, he wanted you. And you wanted him back, even though you knew that I still had hope and that I wanted him back. I needed him, and I needed you to be there for me.. but you both ignored my feelings and just did what you wanted to do. And I see now that I should not have been such a bitch about anything, but you have to understand that it hurt! I just could not get over the fact that you could betray a best friend.
Then, sure enough, you decided you didn’t like him. Great. Break my heart and his, why don’t ya? And you were so careless about it. You told people that you’re not even friends with that you didn’t like him and that you were gonna break things off. Did you know that that would hurt him? Did you realize that you were basically lying to his face every time you talked to him? Well, I couldn’t stand to see him hurt like that, so I took it upon myself to just warn him. Thats all I did. I almost did you a favor by letting him know you were done. I didn’t want to see him hurt, and I still cared about him. I’m sorry that I told him without your permission but it just seemed like the right thing to do.
We went through a rough couple of months, and I was so afraid that we would never have our friendship back. I never knew that a boy could do so much damage.
This letter is to tell you that I honestly am sorry. From the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry for that year. You didn’t deserve it, he didn’t deserve it, and I didn’t deserve it. But something else that I want to tell you is that I don’t really regret much from what happened. We both learned some valuable lessons from everything, and I think it helped me get over him because I realized what a shallow ass hole he really is. The only thing that I regret from everything was that our friendship was put in danger. I value our friendship so much and if I had lost it, I would probably never forgive myself.
I am so happy to have you back. You are one of the best friends that I have and I’m blessed to have you. I love you, and I’m sorry.