I want to fill this emptiness inside me; this vacuum that occupies the heart of my ribcage. I want to feel like I make a difference in somebody’s life; like I am truly important and that my love matters. I want this pain to dissipate into the morning air like fog as the sun rises higher in the sky. I don’t want to be lonely any more, cause frankly, it sucks.
I don’t necessarily want you, but I miss the love you had for me. I’m just coming to terms to that. Yeah, you were amazing, but right now I’ll take anybody’s love. It would be awesome to have you back, but I’m done getting my hopes up. You’re gone. End of story. But I miss your love…
I want to see somebody try to conceal a smile at the sight of me.
I want to see somebody blush when they are talking to me.
I want to hold somebody in my arms and feel the warmth of their breath on my neck.
I want to be somebody’s everything; that one person that they can’t live without.
I want to hear somebody whisper how much they love me and how much of a difference my presence makes in their life.
I don’t want sex or even making out or any of those lustful pleasures. Yeah, I know, coming from a guy that’s hard to believe, but all I want is genuine love in all its purity and beauty. I’m just so alone, and I feel so unloved. Yeah, I know my parents love me, but I am quite distanced and unattached to them. It’s not the same. I have one real friend, but even from her at times I feel so… unimportant or unneeded. No, I don’t want any kind of romantic love from her. She’s like a sister. But still, I wish I’d rate higher than her love for books or other activities more often…
I really have nobody, and even as a writer I just can’t find the proper words to express the crushing weight of this nothingness on my chest. Girl, I’d take you back in a heartbeat, but right now it doesn’t really mean much ‘cause I’d take anybody right now; anybody who could love me for me, even if that means I have to learn how to love them back. I don’t want to just settle because I want to believe that there’s somebody awesome, special, and perfect for me out there, but tonight I just want anybody… Still, I wish it were you, despite the impossibility…
Man, I miss you girl, and I miss your love. </3