• Fate

    by  • November 27, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Hope • 42 Comments

    I sometimes wonder if you use this site to write what you can’t say to me. Will fate bring us together through this? Only fate can decide. I have wrote so many letters to you I’ve lost track. Some angry and resentment but the majority of them about loving you and the intense, overwhelming feelings I have for you. Do you write to me on here? You may do or you may not. Again, I will leave this to fate, as thats what brought me to you initially. I am so glad you were in my life.
    Will I see your name at the bottom? Maybe I’m just being daft. I met you for a reason. I just want to know what that reason is…

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    42 Responses to Fate

    1. Adeliya
      November 30, 2011 at 3:39 pm

      That reason is LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!




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    2. catcher
      November 30, 2011 at 4:17 pm

      I write you all the time.




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    3. Sal
      December 5, 2011 at 2:49 pm

      You write to me all the time? I wonder if you’re the guy I’ve wrote so many letters to on here. Probably not. Well you reply to my posts a lot




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    4. catcher
      December 5, 2011 at 3:00 pm

      I was thinking/typing out loud. I write to someone here all the time also. This particular letter kind of “hit home” because I live my life by fate and karma. I was only hoping you were the woman I wanted to give all of myself to.




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    5. Sal
      December 5, 2011 at 3:10 pm

      Oh my god this is like a dream. Wow. I think you are him although I’m not certain but I want to know you whoever you are because I feel this is in fate’s hands that we should ‘meet’




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    6. catcher
      December 5, 2011 at 5:13 pm

      and now you’ve peaked my curiosity also. I’m open to any ideas.




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    7. Sal
      December 6, 2011 at 9:42 am

      I was hoping you were him. The guy I’ve been madly in love for nearly 4 yrs but you’re not right? I may be the woman you’d give all yourself to but maybe not who you think. I’m always wondering if anybody writes to me here. I know its a silly idea.




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    8. catcher
      December 6, 2011 at 10:49 am

      Well I’m taking the time to write you right here and now so someone cares enough to write to you. I’m probably not who you’d like me to be and you’re probably not the woman I would like you to be but…
      Does your guy know you’ve been madly in love with him for four years? I’m assuming so or maybe I’m wrong. How do we know?




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    9. Sal
      December 6, 2011 at 11:15 am

      He never knew how serious I was about him. I think he thought I was messing him around as one minute I was all for him and the next I held back. What I felt/still feel is real but I was just so shy. Because of that I let him go. Has he moved on? I don’t know but if he I was straight with him then maybe we would be together now. You have no idea how much I’m kicking myself for letting him go like that especially as we had a connection that was so strong. Its heartbreaking. We were so alike in a lot of little ways




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    10. catcher
      December 6, 2011 at 12:07 pm

      I know spot on how you feel. I let her jerk on my heartstrings for so long that when she left I was devastated. I don’t think she was ever completely honest with me but how am I to know. I simply lived for each and every moment we got to spend together and the short phone calls in the middle of the day and all the other little things. Just to hear her voice would me so happy. We were so alike yet so different I thought we were the perfect match but she obviously thought differently. I would give anything just to be close to her one last time but knowing what it would do to me I don’t think I ever will. Unless she one day decides to take me seriously and realize that I’m not just a toy.




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    11. Sal
      December 6, 2011 at 12:39 pm

      Do you know if you will see her again? What hurts is not knowing when I will see him again, if at all even. When I looked in the mirror I saw him stare back at me thats how much we connected. It hurts so much that I let him go. I was going to do all these things and say all these things that I wanted/needed to say but I couldnt. I’m so stupid. I’ve lost him. All I wanted was him. Us. Together. He made me feel beautiful.
      Why did I have to be so shy?? πŸ™




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    12. catcher
      December 6, 2011 at 2:31 pm

      We are very much on the same page here. I also had so many things I wanted to say to her and do with her but she never gave me the chance. As soon as we would start to get close she would pull away until the last time she pulled away and never came back.
      As far as seeing her again, that’s the problem. I see a piece of her in every woman I see or speak to. I see her all over because we both enjoy so many of the same places and activities. I saw her just this last saturday. I went to see one of our favorite local bands and when I walked in the door, there she was. I had to leave. I so very much want to be with her again but I don’t know that I can put myself through that. Again. With what I’ve been told by people that know her I never should have trusted her. I was willing to give her every last piece of myself. The more I think about it I realize all she was doing was using me. All this time. It still hurts.
      As for you being shy, I don’t know what to tell you. You seem to be opening up to me but this is all online. There are no consequences here as there are in a relationship.




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    13. Sal
      December 6, 2011 at 3:02 pm

      We seem to have a few things in common here. I can relate to everything you’re telling me. You seem to be really hung up on her just like I am hung up on him. Its still tearing me apart.
      I swear I saw him in the local karaoke bar one Friday. The guy looked JUST like him and looked at me in the SAME way he always looked at me. I was so distraught and it felt so weird and it didnt make sense. It was him. No it wasnt. Yes it was. Thats what goes through my mind again and again. Was it him? If it was then I blew my chances and won’t see him again.

      I dont normally talk to strangers like this but we’re alike in this sense.




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    14. catcher
      December 6, 2011 at 4:06 pm

      I does get a little bit easier after awhile. I wouldn’t go so far as to say I’m hung up on her. I just can’t shut my feelings off for her like she did for me. I’m also a “fighter.” I will do everything in my power to save a relationship. I guess she just didn’t feel the same. It wasn’t easy enough for her. Its my belief that anything worth having or loving isn’t going to be easy. There will be speedbumps and detours and all that. With me a relationship is more than just to people being together. The woman I’m in a relationship with is also my “muse.” Some like. Some don’t.
      I don’t have a clue why I’m telling you all this for the whole world to see. I just feel like we have an odd connection. Through all this time and space and distance. I guess its a form of therapy for both of us.




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    15. Sal
      December 7, 2011 at 2:17 pm

      I feel strangely comforted by talking to you. It feels like we could be helping each other to get past this and to lead us both onto the right track again, whatever that track may be.

      Its going to take a very long time to let go of this guy. Or am I meant to hold on to him? Only time will tell I guess.
      Trouble is, he gave me so many mixed signals that after a while I didnt know what to believe and still don’t. How will I ever know? He left me with nothing. Could he be saying the same about me though? Its all a bit of a mystery to be honest. I don’t think I’ll ever know how that man felt about me and what his intentions were/or still are




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    16. catcher
      December 7, 2011 at 2:29 pm

      I know how you feel. Its just to bad that as humans we can make eachother feel so bad. Its not nice. Its also to bad that we have no idea who or where eachother is. I feel like you could be the kind of person I could sit down with over a cafe miel and talk for hours. Sorry but I have to cut it short for now. I will catch up with you later.




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    17. Sal
      December 7, 2011 at 3:02 pm

      I feel the same way. I’m wondering who you are and where you are. If you’re in the UK or abroad. Or even how old you are! I have to say, I’m very curious that’s probably part of the reason why we replied to each other.
      The word flow easily here but I’m not sure if they would if we were to meet in person. As you know already lol I can be very shy and reserved.
      Talk to you later




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    18. catcher
      December 7, 2011 at 9:35 pm

      This is kind of painful to say but I’m abroad. Assuming you are in the UK? The closest I’ve ever been to the UK is when I was offered a job that would have put me in France 6 months a year. A job I turned down because, well, I thought we were serious and I didn’t want to be away from her for so long. Anyway. I’m 31 years old and am more than a little curious about you also. As for you being shy and reserved, that’s nothing to be ashamed of. I find a quality like that very becoming in some women. I’m not a big fan of the loud mouth, has to be the center of attention type of woman. Quiet and reserved offers a bit of mystery sometimes. Let the whole place wonder what you are thinking. I’m the same way. Its sometimes rather humorous when some walks up to me and asks what’s going on in my head.

      And you?




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    19. Sal
      December 8, 2011 at 6:11 am

      Whys it painful? Yes I am in the UK. I am 28. Gosh Its rare to find someone online who I actually want to talk to haha and so openly too.
      I guess we won’t be talking this anywhere other than this site which is a pity. I’m just so grateful that someone is taking the time to write to me and shares a lot of the same experiences. Mind you, you could turn out to be like him.




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    20. Sal
      December 8, 2011 at 10:15 am

      Why do you think its painful for you to say? Yes I am in the UK. I am 28.
      Its rare for me to find someone online who I actually want to talk to haha. I’m guessing this ‘meeting’ won’t exist anywhere other than this site which is a pity. I’m really enjoying this chat though.
      Who knows maybe one day our paths in cross. Mind you, you may end up just like him which I’m sure is a good thing or a bad thing.




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    21. catcher
      December 8, 2011 at 4:20 pm

      I guess I shouldn’t say its painful. Its just our loss that you’re there and I’m here. So far away yet so close. Only a simple key stroke away. I look forward with great anticipation to every message I get from you. I only wish there were a way I could get you my personal email address or my name without broadcasting it over this site so you could message me personally via email or FB. It would be a personal conversation between you and I unlike this for the whole world to see. It seems as though I don’t care if the greater part of the universe can see what I’ve written. Maybe the “connection” we have made as of late will give all of the other heartbroken souls hope. Let them see that they are not alone. Let them see that out of the millions of people feeling miserable on this great planet that there can be someone out the that they can connect with. Someone that can help them through the hard times. For this I thank you. With me a special person in my life is more than just a person to be with and love. She is my muse. Even though you and I have never and may never actually get to gaze into eachothers eyes you have for some strange reason become my muse. I feel there is a very strong connection between you and I and I hope to never let that fade but…




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    22. catcher
      December 8, 2011 at 10:13 pm

      Let me clear that up. I’m not saying I love you. We’ve never met. You could be an ax murderer for all I know. I’m simply saying that I feel very and strangely comfortable talking with you and don’t want to lose that. As for you becoming my muse, my creativity is coming back and I have no one else to give credit to but you.




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    23. Sal
      December 9, 2011 at 1:31 pm

      I am no axe murderer. I’m just me! Thank you for your kind words. They mean a lot to me. Yes I hope that we are giving people through this. There is no need to thank me. I feel a strong connection between us too and I always look forward to these ‘meetings’.
      Yes I wish there was a way aswell, but if we were to take this outside of this site, then thats a risk either of us has to take.

      You seem so sweet…




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    24. catcher
      December 9, 2011 at 3:59 pm

      The axe murderer comment was only a joke. I’m sorry. I’m sure you are a wonderful, amazing, and beautiful woman in every sense. I do need to thank you. Your messages bring a smile to my face and a little warmth in my heart with every word. Thank you. Its been a while since I’ve had that. Or for that matter looked forward to hearing someone. Someone as kind and caring as you.
      I will think of a way to get you my email. Somehow. I’m willing to take the risk if you are. Its not every day I “meet” someone like you.




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    25. S
      December 9, 2011 at 4:39 pm

      Yes I am willing to take a risk. Only if you are though. This ‘meeting’ is really special to me. I’m keen to know more about you.




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    26. catcher
      December 9, 2011 at 4:51 pm

      I am willing. Very. Our “meetings” are very special to me also. I am also very interested about you. I will think of some way. Maybe “fate” might play a part. You already know the first half of my email…




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    27. S
      December 9, 2011 at 5:31 pm

      OK now if you think I wasn’t curious before, I am now. I’m quite excited too. This has never happened to me before. I never expected to ‘meet’ anyone like this. You’re definitely giving me something to look forward to now. Somehow I don’t feel alone anymore and I’ve ‘found’ someone who ‘knows’ me. Thank you for this




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    28. catcher
      December 9, 2011 at 5:39 pm

      Fate




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    29. catcher
      December 9, 2011 at 7:52 pm

      Just outta curiousity, you went from Sal to S. What happen there? I’m trying to be safe for both of us but how do I know you are the same person?
      I never expected to ‘meet’ anyone like this either and am so excited I can hardly sit still. Yahoo! I’m doing everything in my power to not just publish my name and email here for you but that probably wouldn’t be good for either one of us. We will think of something. Like i said earlier, you already know the first half. Now think about it, ifucan, and maybe it will come to you.




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    30. S
      December 10, 2011 at 6:12 am

      I am the same person πŸ™‚ sorry about that




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    31. S
      December 10, 2011 at 6:21 am

      I think its safe for you to tell me your first name I’m not sure.
      Thank you for giving me something to look forward to! Its also helping me forget about him – at least for a while anyway…

      Looks like fat is being nice to me for a change. I’ve been through what seems like hell and back for most of my life. Here we are telling each other our life stories and we don’t know each other from adam! I just hope we do get to know more about each other soon




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    32. catcher
      December 10, 2011 at 11:42 am

      No no. Thank you. You are also giving me something to look forward to. You already know my name. At least what my close friends call me. Its at the top of every message. My entire email address is concealed in message 29. Its just not in any particular order. It starts with my name. If you find it and say it in your mind it all makes sense. Its all one word and the u is just short for you. As far as us telling eachother our life stories, there is so much I would like to know about you. What makes you happy, what makes you sad, and everything else in between. Its just not a very good idea to paste it here. I would just spill it all but who knows who is reading this. I don’t want our email boxes to fill up with everyone junk as my email goes straight to my handheld. But, like I said, I spelled it out for you in 29. Hopefully you can figure it out. I would really like it if we could make this much more personal. You seem like such a wonderful person who I would like to know.




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    33. admin
      December 10, 2011 at 12:35 pm

      Or — you could ask the admin to email you each other’s email addresses. πŸ™‚ Just each give me permission and I’ll send them to you.




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    34. catcher
      December 10, 2011 at 12:43 pm

      So…you’re like the angel of mercy, fate’s helping hand, our saviour. Thank you. You have my permission to give her mine.




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    35. S
      December 10, 2011 at 12:43 pm

      .Edwards
      Planetmail

      There’s some food for thought. Have you worked it out yet? Hopefully this will be enough to take a guess at. I wasn’t able to work out yours sorry!




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    36. lovesick
      December 10, 2011 at 12:54 pm

      This is interesting; LINS has taken the place of cupid. All the very best to you both; I hope that at least you remain very good friends for the rest of your lives. Cheers!!! <3




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    37. S
      December 10, 2011 at 1:01 pm

      Awww thanks hun! I’m glad that we seem to be having some positive effect among readers :-).




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    38. Olivia
      December 10, 2011 at 4:51 pm

      You have to let us know if you guys continue this friendship. It would be an amazing story to tell




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    39. catcher
      December 10, 2011 at 6:33 pm

      Yes it would. I knew fate and karma would turn out some day.




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    40. S
      December 11, 2011 at 7:08 am

      We will be sure to :-). Thanks for the comments




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    41. Amanda
      December 11, 2011 at 3:04 pm

      Amazing.




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    42. catcher
      December 11, 2011 at 6:51 pm

      You never know when life is going to throw you a curveball. Fate. Mind you, I could walk out the door tonight and get hit by a bus and our story would stop or we may go on to be, well…who knows. Only time will tell




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