I used to hear you whisper that to me before we’d fall asleep at night. We were together for a significant amount of time, sharing memories together, with others, and with our families. We were extremely close; the best of friends besides lovers. You gave me a reason to smile, even when times were stressful. Your personality strengths complimented my personality weaknesses – when I lacked confidence, you helped me build it; when I was shy, you helped me fight for what I wanted; when I sat quietly as a person brought me down, you would speak to me later about how I need to stand up for myself and show the person I am strong. I also did the same for you – when you were too confident, I helped you become more humble; when you were completely down on yourself, I would find ways to remind you of all the reasons why you were so wonderful; when you felt alone, I gave you the company and the love you longed for and deserved.
We were a great team, you said so yourself.
I made a lot of sacrifices the past few months, which have caused me to put some things on hold on my life. You asked me to marry you, and then you took that promise away. You promised to work at it, but then you broke that promise, too. Now, we sit here in silence, awaiting the day, both anxiously and with pain, that we move out of this apartment and into separate places. Is it goodbye forever, or is it see you later?
Sadly, through all you have done to me in the past few months, I still care for you deeply. Whether we want to admit it or not, we had it pretty good… I just hope both of us don’t go our separate ways thinking that we were each other’s “one that was passed up”. I hope you are happy. At the same time, I hope you realize that you made a mistake.
And now, to finish what I had started in the beginning:
“If she’s amazing, she won’t be easy. If she’s easy, she won’t be amazing. If she’s worth it, you won’t give up. If you give up, you’re not worthy.”