• To nobody…

    by  • November 25, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Depression, Help • 1 Comment

    Dear someone, or no one, or anyone,

    I’ve been trying to say something for a while now. I’m not fine.

    I spend so much time upholding everyone’s expectations. But I’m not happy. I haven’t been for so long but I just don’t know how to tell anyone. They expect to see me smiling happily everyday and it seems silly to go and ruin this image.

    Even I expect my self to be happy. Yet here I am. I don’t know how to elaborate on this feeling. It doesn’t seem worth the effort.

    I just don’t know.

    One Response to To nobody…

    1. Flightless Bird
      November 26, 2011 at 7:47 am

      I totally get it. I’m the youngest and last hope of the family. The others have almost thrown their lives away on stupid things like drugs, alcohol, and lovers. Their expectations are set so much lower than mine are. I can’t handle it. If I get a B, I’m not trying. If my siblings get B’s then they’re doing really good. It’s just not fair.

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