• To Jeffrey C.S.

    by  • November 25, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Thanksgiving • 0 Comments

    My love, it’s been a while since i last saw your face. I want to start off by saying that i’m sorry and that i miss you…so much, that you really don’t understand how much. I wish i could be by your side again, being able to kiss you, hold your hand, and even be able to wake up to your face every morning.

    Today is Thanksgiving, and even though i spoke to you this morning, letting you know that i wish you a Happy Thanksgiving, there’s many things that i want to be thankful for. First, i’m so thankful that you let me into your life and treated me like no other. You always spoiled me and made me feel amazing. I felt like my world was complete with you in my life. Even though were not in each others life like we used to anymore, i still think about you everyday and how much we were in love.

    Second, i want to thank you for all the memories we have had. Since 5th grade i’ve known you, and even though we might have not made as many memories in elementary in middle school, we still had our moments. Like how we dated for an hour and then i broke up with you, haha. It wasn’t until high school that i realized that i had to have you. And when i finally had you, we made amazing memories together. From our first kiss, to the road trips we took, to the times we would stay up super late watching movies and pigging out together:) Aside from the good memories, we had a lot of downfalls. Like the time my grandma passed away, you were the only one there beside me holding my hand and telling me everything was going to be okay. You have caught so many of my tears and i have caught so many of yours. And i want you to know i will always be here to catch more tears. All the memories we have had, i will FOREVER hold them in my heart. No matter what.

    Last but not least, thank you for showing me what true love feels like. Even though our break-up was horrible, our entire relationship was just amazing. You were my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, and the best boyfriend i could ever have. I still remember falling in love with you and i’ve been wanting to tell you but….to this day, i am still in love with you. No one has ever made me feel like this, and my heart still hurts at the fact that i’m not your happiness anymore and that i’m not there to see you anymore. But although i’m still hurting, i’m still so thankful for everything. You have helped me through everything, you have taught me many things, and you were always there to make sure i always had a smile on my face.

    There’s so many things i’m thankful for, and i hope that someday, i’ll be able to tell you. I wish things didn’t have to end like they did, but there’s a reason for everything, and i’m always going to be here, if not as you’re girlfriend, then as your friend. The thing is, it’s going to be hard, because i can’t be just friends. But if i have to settle for less, it’s better than nothing.

    Graduation is near, and i just hope after graduation, you’ll still think of me as much as i’ll be thinking of you. I wish you the best in life and happiness. You always told me you were going to be successful in life and that you will never let anything bring you down. Our life is just starting mi amor, and even though we’ve made our memories…i hope you move on to make even more great memories, even if it’s not with me. I’ve shed many tears over you, i’ve had dreams with you, i’ve done all i can for you. But it wasn’t enough. And if i had another chance, i would take it in a heartbeat and give my 100 percent. Because you deserve it and you deserve someone to make you happy as much as you made me feel.

    I love you Jeffrey, never keep being who you are and always have faith in things. Be safe, take care, and god bless kitty:)


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