I have never been so sure of this in my life. Owen Robert O.: I love you. And I have loved you for a while now. I’ve spent all these months trying to tell myself I’m being stupid and I don’t know what love is, but I do now.
I know that even though you’re so upset and frustrated with me, I can’t just let you go. I’ve sacrificed many things to be in this place, and I would keep on sacrificing if I knew it would somehow make your life better. I’ve never cared about somebody this much in my entire life, and it scares the hell out of me.
Owen, you don’t love me, but I keep letting my heart break for you. I can’t turn away. Even this rough patch won’t send me running, but I’m afraid you might already have given yourself a head start.
Right now, at this very moment, my heart is about to burst for the love I have for you, but my mind is overwhelmed by sadness that only unrequited love can bring. I can’t justify this anymore; all I know is I love you more than I love my life.
I will continue to ache, but I cannot go on if you aren’t happy. Whatever happens, please tell me that your life is all you ever wanted it to be, with or without me.
You make me so happy that when you leave I just want you to come right back again. I hate being away from you. And even now that the “honeymoon” period has ended, I can’t imagine my life without you, my very best friend.
Owen, please don’t ever forget how much I care about you, think about you every day, and love you unconditionally. As painful as this can be, I don’t want to give my love to anyone else. I love you to the moon and back, my dear.