I know what I need to do.
I need to find the strength to leave you.
Leave this empty sad relationship that brings pain and despair
I hold on to you, but you no longer exist and never will.
I hold on to hope but hope no longer lives here.
I hold on that you will change, but 5 years have gone and things will not change.
I hold on that there will be an end to all of this madness, but this is how you are.
It saddens me that my heart weights heavily on me
I do not want to leave for the thought of leaving you makes the world dark
but staying with you means accepting that the world will remain dark.