It’s been a while… I miss you. Everyday. I want you to know that I’m sorry for everything. Everything I ever said, everything I put you through. I’m sorry I was scared. I’m sorry I pushed you away and made you feel worthless. I’m sorry I made you feel like you needed to lose weight for me to notice you. You were perfect. You are perfect. I noticed you every moment. But you wouldn’t have been happy with me. There was no life with me. Look at me… And then look at yourself. How would we work, love? How? You would’ve had to lose everything to be with me… Instead of have everything with someone else. I only wanted you to be happy… And that wouldn’t have happened with me. Don’t tell me different because I listened to you cry yourself to sleep every night. Every night I heard you whisper I love you with tears in your eyes and I couldn’t take it… And look at you now. In college, new boyfriend, beautiful, talented, intelligent… Everything everyone wants to be. You have it all and I’m still here. The only thing I’ve ever really been happy about. You got out. You got away and I’m so proud of you… I’m so happy that you found your way. So i’ll stay in the shadows and i’ll watch from a distance. I’ll keep checking on you occasionally because you know how I am. The first time he screws up, hell will say a prayer for him. I love you, b. Always. I’ll do anything to keep you happy. I hope you know that… Its the one promise I will never break. Love, a.