• Dear Mom & Dad;

    by  • November 23, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Children, Confession • 4 Comments

    Hi, it’s your 2nd youngest daughter here. I know you two are both so proud of me. I went straight to college from high school, I was always a good child.

    I know you guys will support me throughout just about anything, & I love you both so much for it. I know we don’t always get along, but I don’t know how I’ll handle this world without you both, whenever you may leave.

    I’m 20 years old now, I’m in my last year of college. I drink every weekend.

    In August, I spent just about every night at the bar back home. I had sex with a guy who has a gf while I was drunk, I know it’s not an excuse, I’m trying to explain… anyway, you both already know this. I called you both the next day, I was so scared of what would happen, I was disgusted that I did that. I shook all day & I couldn’t eat proper for days.
    I came to terms with what I’ve done a few days afterward, & moved on. I came back out to school, to finish up school.

    So you’re probably wondering why I’m bringing this all up, while we’ve all just about let it go.

    Well, I wasn’t on birth control, he didn’t use a condom. I asked if he finished & he said no, but we were drunk, & I don’t know if he’s lying or not.

    For the past couple weeks, I’ve been having headaches, the urge to vomit. Tonight, I realized my sense of smell has become strong, I couldn’t uncover my nose while sitting next to my friends who were drinking & smoking.

    I haven’t missed a period since I seen the guy, & I haven’t seen anyone else.

    But.. my stomach, I swear, it’s getting bigger, & harder. & the signs.. I think I’m pregnant. Oh god, I never wanted to say those words to you two. You both know that I don’t want to be a mom.

    I’ve been drinking every weekend since, because I thought I wasn’t pregnant, this child will most likely have problems if I must go through with it.

    No, I’m not telling all of this to you both, so I can get permission of what to do with the child.

    I have my mind made up, if I’m not more than 3 months, I will definitely get an abortion. I am not ready for this child, you both know this. You can’t say that I can’t because I know that mom had two abortions, one before me & on after me.

    However, if I am past 3 months, I do believe I’ll keep the child. I will raise him/her & love them as much as you both love me, I will teach them everything I know.

    I know I’ll be called names, hated, & maybe some people won’t talk to me.
    But, if they decide to do that then maybe I don’t need them in my life.

    I know you both will be very mad if I have to tell you both this after my appointment tmrw, but I won’t hide it from you. Its not something to hide, because I’d never get away with it.
    Dad, I know you will want to mostly kill the guy who got me pregnant, because its just how protective you are.

    I know, that the father will most likely deny the child, & probably won’t help me with him/her.

    I know I’m not ready, & I don’t want to have a kid. But if I’m past 3 months, then I will, in approx. 6 months.

    I’m so very scared, & I don’t know how to be an actual mom. I don’t have a career started, or a place to live, or a father for the child.

    I know it’ll take a while for you to both come to terms with it, I know you won’t be too happy & I’m not either.

    I’m so so scared Mom & Dad, please say you’ll help me. Please say it’ll be okay. My life, there’s so much I had left to do before I started a family. I never did want to join all my friends who are having kids. I never did want to join in on them with much really.

    Please say it’ll be okay, because I’m still a kid myself, even though I’m 20. I’m not ready for this step in life.

    Your possible pregnant daughter,

    4 Responses to Dear Mom & Dad;

    1. Situations
      November 24, 2011 at 9:36 am

      I almost cried reading this letter. You really are just a child yourself, and it will most definitely be a difficult situation for you. I’m not that much older than you, but I was in a situation recently where I thought I was pregnant. I was so scared. I ended up not being pregnant though. It sounds like you probably are…and it will be tough. Very tough. But, parents are parents…they will get upset and scold you. But, they are your parents and will always love you. Blood is thicker than tears. Your family is ALWAYS there for you. And, most importantly, GOD is there for you. You will stumble, you will fall….but you will stand again. You sound like a strong woman, so you can do this. Just remember…you are never alone. You are loved.

    2. OP
      November 24, 2011 at 10:16 pm

      Thank you very much.

      I found out today that I am not. I started today (i know, TMI).
      But I am so happy.

      I don’t want a child until I am ready.

    3. Situations
      November 24, 2011 at 11:41 pm

      I am so happy to hear that!!! 🙂 thank goodness! But don’t forget how this whole situation made you feel…avoid getting into something like this again. But I’m sure you already knew that ^_^ I wish you all thr best. God bless you always!

    4. OP
      November 25, 2011 at 2:50 pm

      Yes, I’ve learned my lesson! On birth control now & i’ll never put myself in that situation again!.

      thanks. 🙂

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