Hi, it’s your 2nd youngest daughter here. I know you two are both so proud of me. I went straight to college from high school, I was always a good child.
I know you guys will support me throughout just about anything, & I love you both so much for it. I know we don’t always get along, but I don’t know how I’ll handle this world without you both, whenever you may leave.
I’m 20 years old now, I’m in my last year of college. I drink every weekend.
In August, I spent just about every night at the bar back home. I had sex with a guy who has a gf while I was drunk, I know it’s not an excuse, I’m trying to explain… anyway, you both already know this. I called you both the next day, I was so scared of what would happen, I was disgusted that I did that. I shook all day & I couldn’t eat proper for days.
I came to terms with what I’ve done a few days afterward, & moved on. I came back out to school, to finish up school.
So you’re probably wondering why I’m bringing this all up, while we’ve all just about let it go.
Well, I wasn’t on birth control, he didn’t use a condom. I asked if he finished & he said no, but we were drunk, & I don’t know if he’s lying or not.
For the past couple weeks, I’ve been having headaches, the urge to vomit. Tonight, I realized my sense of smell has become strong, I couldn’t uncover my nose while sitting next to my friends who were drinking & smoking.
I haven’t missed a period since I seen the guy, & I haven’t seen anyone else.
But.. my stomach, I swear, it’s getting bigger, & harder. & the signs.. I think I’m pregnant. Oh god, I never wanted to say those words to you two. You both know that I don’t want to be a mom.
I’ve been drinking every weekend since, because I thought I wasn’t pregnant, this child will most likely have problems if I must go through with it.
No, I’m not telling all of this to you both, so I can get permission of what to do with the child.
I have my mind made up, if I’m not more than 3 months, I will definitely get an abortion. I am not ready for this child, you both know this. You can’t say that I can’t because I know that mom had two abortions, one before me & on after me.
However, if I am past 3 months, I do believe I’ll keep the child. I will raise him/her & love them as much as you both love me, I will teach them everything I know.
I know I’ll be called names, hated, & maybe some people won’t talk to me.
But, if they decide to do that then maybe I don’t need them in my life.
I know you both will be very mad if I have to tell you both this after my appointment tmrw, but I won’t hide it from you. Its not something to hide, because I’d never get away with it.
Dad, I know you will want to mostly kill the guy who got me pregnant, because its just how protective you are.
I know, that the father will most likely deny the child, & probably won’t help me with him/her.
I know I’m not ready, & I don’t want to have a kid. But if I’m past 3 months, then I will, in approx. 6 months.
I’m so very scared, & I don’t know how to be an actual mom. I don’t have a career started, or a place to live, or a father for the child.
I know it’ll take a while for you to both come to terms with it, I know you won’t be too happy & I’m not either.
I’m so so scared Mom & Dad, please say you’ll help me. Please say it’ll be okay. My life, there’s so much I had left to do before I started a family. I never did want to join all my friends who are having kids. I never did want to join in on them with much really.
Please say it’ll be okay, because I’m still a kid myself, even though I’m 20. I’m not ready for this step in life.
Your possible pregnant daughter,