I’m sorry for putting you through hell this past week. I’m sorry I ended things abruptly and that you did not foresee this. I did not want to hurt you, but I had to. I could not force my feelings for you any longer because although I knew you were happy thinking things were good, I was not. I hate seeing you upset and knowing I am the reason for your sadness but it would have only hurt so much worse if I kept this going. I do like you a lot and we do have so much fun together. I love kissing you and cuddling and everything else but for some reason something was just not there. I hated how you would push things onto me and tell me that you knew what I was thinking because obviously you didn’t. It sucks not talking to you on a daily basis knowing that you pretty much despise me right now but I do not regret what I did. Yes, you treated me well and I know you would have done anything for me but you deserve someone who is going to love you unconditionally and that person is not me. I want so desperately for you to be happy and therefore I did this so you could find that someone. I know you think I don’t care right now but I do, I have thought about you a lot hoping that you’re alright but knowing you probably not. I just pray that someday you will understand and that you can forgive me but for now I sit here waiting. I do love you, but I just couldn’t go on knowing I’m only lifting you up for a letdown.
I really do care about you so much.