To my lonely heart,
My heart aches. It is never ending loneliness. I feel so isolated. Everyday is the same: class, work, workout, homework. I have no social life. Why am I so alone Here!? God please tell me. I have no close friends here, finding love here is so heartbreaking laughable. I just want to cry. This year I have cried so much more than I have ever cried in my life. I honestly don’t remember when the last time I was truly happy. I think it was probably when I was accepted into the program. I want to be happy, but I don’t know how any more. I struggle to be okay but I am so messed up inside. No one notices. I shouldn’t be surprised by this, I mean the only person I can’t fool is my mom and I only see her a few times a year now. I am lonely here. I am so empty inside. I see groups of friends hanging out, I see couples holding each other close. I am jealous as hell of these people but my yearning to have companionship of any sort is so much stronger. Honestly at this point I wish someone would notice how broken I am,to just genuinely give a crap so I could give them a real answer, “No,I am not fine.” I know there are people who are in far worse situations than mine, and I pray for them because they deserve to have a better life but I need to start praying for myself too. Dear Lord, please bring relief to the suffering and please bring me some peace, put my heart back together again.