• Lonely Heart

    by  • November 19, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Loneliness • 1 Comment

    To my lonely heart,

    My heart aches. It is never ending loneliness. I feel so isolated. Everyday is the same: class, work, workout, homework. I have no social life. Why am I so alone Here!? God please tell me. I have no close friends here, finding love here is so heartbreaking laughable. I just want to cry. This year I have cried so much more than I have ever cried in my life. I honestly don’t remember when the last time I was truly happy. I think it was probably when I was accepted into the program. I want to be happy, but I don’t know how any more. I struggle to be okay but I am so messed up inside. No one notices. I shouldn’t be surprised by this, I mean the only person I can’t fool is my mom and I only see her a few times a year now. I am lonely here. I am so empty inside. I see groups of friends hanging out, I see couples holding each other close. I am jealous as hell of these people but my yearning to have companionship of any sort is so much stronger. Honestly at this point I wish someone would notice how broken I am,to just genuinely give a crap so I could give them a real answer, “No,I am not fine.” I know there are people who are in far worse situations than mine, and I pray for them because they deserve to have a better life but I need to start praying for myself too. Dear Lord, please bring relief to the suffering and please bring me some peace, put my heart back together again.

    Broken Spirit

    One Response to Lonely Heart

    1. Lex
      November 19, 2011 at 11:18 pm

      This is perfect, I’m honestly right there with you….dying for companionship</3

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