I am fighting the hardest battle I have ever faced. On the one hand, I have a beautiful, sexy, and intelligent girl friend who I love very much. On the other hand, I have you- the one who makes me smile and drives me to be a better person. You as well are beautiful, sexy, and intelligent. What the hell am I supposed to do?? You could not have come into my life at a more inconvenient time. I love my girl friend, yes but I have doubts that don’t have to do with you. I have strong feelings for you but we cannot be together due to professional reasons so why is this even still a question? You drive me crazy in such an amazing way and honestly I’m crazy about you. Why do people like you come into my life, what’s the purpose? Are we supposed to be together? Who knows, all I know is how I feel when I’m around you, and now, even your friendship means the world to me. I think I’ll just continue to put in time as your friend, work on my relationship, and hopefully learn from this situation and come out happy no matter what the outcome is. It’s just my heart is telling me one thing and my brain is telling me the other… I hope I find my answers. In the mean time, having such beautiful people in my life leaves me with no complaints- I just want to do the right thing.