Not talking to you absolutely sucks..I was sick to my stomach yesterday and called into work cause I couldn’t do it. today i am skipping classes cause i can’t stand being bored out of my mind since it’s in those moments i think about you the most. i want tuesday to be here, yet at the same time it scares the crap out of me and i almost don’t want to come home in fear that it’ll be the day we break up. i cannot even begin to think about that right now. i can’t sleep through the night without waking up from a dream that i was on the phone with you. it’s in these moments that i hate dreaming because i so wish i didn’t have to wake up to the reality that i’m not going to hear from you until tuesday and even then i dread it. i so wish you would change so that we could continue on in our near perfect relationship. it’s so frustrating that we can’t see from the same perspective. i want to give in and compromise my beliefs but i know that’s not right. i have prayed so much in the last two days and have cried myself to sleep. i can’t stand the thought of not being with you.