• I don’t want to be that girl.

    by  • November 17, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 0 Comments

    I know you’re busy.

    So am I.

    College, work, life.

    But I don’t ask much of you. I really don’t. I don’t ask you to be my friend, I want you to be my friend. I don’t ask you to care about me, because I know you do. I don’t ask you to take hours out of your day for me, because I know you’re so incredibly busy.

    I just am having a hard time understanding why you can’t take two seconds of your day to answer the question in my text. It’s not like I asked you if you loved me. It’s not like I asked you to be more than my friend. All I asked, was if you could call me tonight, because you said you would yesterday but didn’t.

    I wouldn’t even have been mad if you said no. I get it. You’re super smart and have a shit ton to do. So do I, But I MISS YOU. I miss you so much. I just want to talk to you for a little bit. I just want to know how your life is going. I just want to tell you about a few things that have been going on in my life. 30 minutes. That’s all I am asking for.

    You’ve always been really good at being honest with me. You’ve always been good with responding to my questions and seeming interested in how I am. But lately something has changed. It scares me. You’re 5 hours away. It’s not like I can just drop by any time I want to see you. It’s not like you can just take off of work and come see me. I know that. But the one thing I look forward to doing is hearing your voice. Just talking to you once in a blue moon. I don’t want that to go away.

    I’m really frustrated, but at the same time I don’t want to be THAT girl. I don’t want to be the girl that gets all bitchy with you for not texting me back. I don’t want to be the girl who is constantly asking you to call. I don’t want to be the girl who waits up for you at night. I don’t want to be the girl who gets sad when you don’t call. I don’t want to be her, because i’ve been her before and I refuse to go back. I’m better than that.

    So if you could just please call me. Sometime. Just for a little bit. So we can catch up. that’s all I want. But I’m not going to be that girl anymore. I’m not going to wait forever.

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