Everyone keeps telling me you’re a bad idea like I don’t already know. The thing is, with you, I know I’ll probably never have you. So you can not hurt me then can you? I mean a little maybe but if we never really go anywhere, we will likely fade out. Even if you are a douche it won’t hurt because at this point I almost expect nothing less. I really don’t know what to do anymore. I was so hurt in the past that as much as I want something more, I see every guy who is a nice guy as the one who is next to break my heart and I see every guy who I think is a douche as the one who I will never let get close enough anyways. This logic really doesn’t make much sense. Not even to me. I had never been so confused before men invaded my life. To be fair I let the first one in. I miss the true belief that prince charming was coming. My first boyfriend laughed at me for it but treated me well and my second, he could have been the one had I not been so blind to what was going on. Now I am stuck here at a cross road and I don’t know what it is I should do. I want to believe in happily ever after, more then say it, because that I still do. I want to see it, and I want to believe it will still happen for me.