I’m sorry but everyone sucks.
I hate people now. I used to be the biggest people person there was. I loved everyone. I’m that girl everybody goes to for advice… seriously, everybody. And i’m always the shoulder to cry on, the girl who takes care of the drunken fool, the girl to make you laugh when you need it. I’ve taken care of broken down drunk girls who absolutely hate me and have caused bull shit in my life. I don’t like to see other people suffer. I never will. I’m the helper. I like that. I want to always be that. If I could be there for everyone, I would.
For the past couple months i’ve been realizing more and more that it’s true; bad things happen to good people.
Can everyone please just cut the shit?
Don’t pretend to be my friend if you don’t want to be. Don’t lead me on if you don’t like me. Don’t invade my privacy and send it to the world. Don’t compliment me if you don’t mean it. Don’t cheat. Don’t steal. Don’t be a bad person. Just stop. It’s so god damn easy to be a bad person, and that’s why everyone does it.
But then there are a few people who take the high road, live life with all of it’s difficulties that come along with it. The good people. Please tell me more of you exist? I’m losing so much faith.. I don’t know what to do anymore.
I’m scared. I’ve locked myself up. I’ve been hurt too many times now to ever go back to the person I used to be. I’m pushing myself away from everyone and i’m scared to make new attachments. I don’t trust anyone. And to an extent – this is healthy. But i’m pushing the brink of destruction and I know for a fact, that is not healthy.
Simply i’ve lost faith in all of you. People in general – you have failed me. This major disappointment deeply saddens me.
Why can’t more people just try to make other people happy? It makes YOU happy… I truly will never understand how anyone could find satisfaction is ruining someone elses life, stealing someones boy/girl, stabbing someone in the back, intensely lying to someones face.
Why can’t you just wake up and think, ‘today is going to be a great day. It’s not about me. It’s about the world and the people I love.’
Get off your damn ass and go do something fantastic for someone who deserves it. Who knows, maybe people will start to do fantastic things for you too.