• I want to be

    by  • November 15, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 0 Comments

    Dear Kirstin, You don’t know how sorry I am for what I’ve done, I don’t know why I did what I did but I did and I don’t know if I could be any more sorry than I already am. Please let it all go and just give me a chance. I feel so much for you and what I did was wrong, I know it so but to sit here writing this instead of being with you is tough. I don’t want to be with you because I want companionship, someone to hold and kiss. I want to be with you because it’s you. I want you in my life because you’re perfect, more kind and generous than any other soul I know, and on top of it all you’re the most beautiful girl I have and will ever see in my life. You’re my inspiration, the thought that keeps me up at night, the feeling that makes me smile all the time. You’re what I know and what I love. I don’t know how I got to feeling so much for you, and I know there’s no way you could feel anything for me now, but if you give me the chance I promise you’ll change your mind about me, I know it to be true. Why do you have to be so far away too? I miss you more than you could ever imagine, I know you don’t miss me but I miss you so much. I just want to be around you again, to talk to you and see your beautiful smiling face again, I want you in my life. I love you more than you know and I just want you to give me the chance. I know I’m 15 years old and you’re 18, I don’t care though. It doesn’t matter, I’m not like everyone else my age. I know the limitations of love at my state, and I’m more mature than anyone else my age. I know you’re probably meeting so many guys you’d rather be with, but take a look and see me, don’t look for the people you just barely met, look at the one that’s been in love with you for a year. I’m trying so hard to be with you and you just push me away. I know that’s the point I should give up, and people think I’m stupid for not, but you know what. This is different. Why would I feel like its meant to be if its not? Tell me why do I feel like this if we’re not supposed to be together? All you have to do is give me a chance and I’ll prove to you that I can be someone you’d be proud to be with, someone that will make your life better, because I want nothing but happiness for you and I would give you nothing less. I want to be with you for no other reason than It’s You. I know I shouldn’t feel anything for someone that doesn’t feel anything for me and I should realize that you probably will never give me the chance, but I don’t know if I believe that. You’re an incredibly kind soul and I feel like maybe you would give me the chance but I also feel you’re just trying to be done with this and let go of me. But I can’t see my life without you, I’ve change because of you. I can’t see my future without you in it, I really can’t. I imagine what we could be doing together, I look at your little brother and his girlfriend everyday and think to myself, that could be us. I don’t want to be with you just to make out, grope each other and have sex. I don’t want any of that and it all goes against my morals and my religion and yours. I want a pure relationship with you, someone to talk to all the time and have fun with, watch movies, walk, someone I can tell anything to good or bad. I want to be there for you when you need comfort, or don’t need comfort. I want to be the one you can talk to about anything and everything.

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