I don’t understand why even though I’m a “great guy” you still apparently don’t think I’m worth your time or effort for a relationship, yet you’ll date a guy who has; 1. tried to take advantage of you while you were drunk on multiple occasions, 2. he doesn’t treat you half as well as he should and is often verbally abusive to you. What the fuck, am I just not good enough or are you not attracted to me or what? I just want to understand why him and not me. And when I brought that up you basically told me I should give up because you weren’t going to ever think I was worth your time or affection. I want to understand why he is and I’m not. I can’t figure it out at all. And if that’s the case I almost want to not feel anything anymore, too bad I swore off my usual or I’d be so far gone you wouldn’t know it was me.