• I hate you almost as much as I loved you

    by  • November 13, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 0 Comments

    When we were together I thought I had something good, being in love with my best friend. You knew all about me, and me about you. I could spend hours on end talking to you on the phone, we made the distance work. But slowly, over the months, you changed, you didn’t trust me anymore, our relationship fell apart as you agonized over my friendships with guys. No matter how many times I tried to explain and convince you that you meant the world to me, you couldn’t help but despise my guy friends and slowly you began to push me away without knowing it. You tried to compete with them by making up lies and searching desperately for attention, even though you already had not only my attention but my heart and my entire trust.
    You knew how much it hurt when I lost my uncle to lung cancer, and yet, when I couldn’t take your immaturity any longer, you told me you had lung cancer, and that you felt like you were losing everything. On top of being crushed having to let you go, you put even more guilt on my shoulders, made me feel like the most heartless person alive.

    It’s been a couple months now that I have moved on but I never thought I could hate you as much as I did when i found out about everything you lied about, the cancer, the treatments, your mom being sick. Everything was a lie made up to try to guilt trip me into staying with you. That was when I realized I could never find someone like you and never wanted to.

    Goodbye JM, we both don’t deserve each other in a way.

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