• Dear Family and Friends

    by  • November 11, 2011 • Confession • 2 Comments

    Dear Family and Friends,

    We’ve been going through a hell of a lot lately. There has been so much stress and pain and frustration with life lately that I just had to say something. I know you won’t see this and know it’s me but I’m saying this to you: I’m sorry I keep fucking up so hard and making things so much harder on other people. I know I can be selfish and rude. I hurt peoples feelings and I don’t take the time to think of others. I can’t think before I speak and my manners are horrible. I know that I keep having break downs and I keep falling back. But I’m so lost trying to figure out what to that I’m slowly going insane with the worry and the stress. And yes mom the weed is an addition too. I’m sorry dad I’m pretty sure I failed out of college this semester. And I’m sorry to my brother who I am so proud of that I have let down so deeply this time. I love you all and I don’t deserve all the efforts you gave. I fucked up my life. And maybe one day things will be ok. but right now before it all blows up i wanted to show you guys that i know what I’ve done and I can’t bare to face you in life so here I can be honest and tell you the truth. I could have been anything I wanted but I lost the motivation in the world to it at all.

    love your daughter

    2 Responses to Dear Family and Friends

    1. just a girl
      November 11, 2011 at 12:45 pm

      not one person is perfect.

    2. T
      November 28, 2011 at 7:11 am

      The things that haunt us into that place where you are cannot be felt by anyone but you. I say US because I have been where you’re at.

      Only you can give up on yourself. Only you. Everyone else wants you to succeed. Literally everyone- from the person who wants what’s best for you to the person who just wants to use you. You should know that from where you’re standing now.

      When you know you’ve made a lot of mistakes, there’s always room to improve. If you aren’t living YOUR life, then stop living that double life you’ve created. I imagine if you were living your own life, you would not feel guilt, shame, or be aware of what it is about your actions that make you feel sick inside.l

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