OK, I can’t say any of this to you because I’m terrified of how you’d react. I hope someday you’ll come across this and realize it’s for you.
He didn’t deserve you. You are a fantastic girl. You tried your hardest to please him and he cheated on you. He cheated on you, lied to you, kept you from his friends… Hell kiddo, how many times did you even set foot in his home? Twice?
I would like to know exactly what it is you loved so much about him. How did he have you so tightly bound around his little finger??? How did he wind up with such a sweetheart? Get invited to live in her home? Get full body massages every frigging night, had someone who loved him as much as you did??? It’s really sick, and how on earth did he find it in himself to leave you the way he did?
You are better off. I just wish I didn’t have to look in your eyes and see the pain lurking there. I just wish I had got to you first. I just wish that he had never sunk his claws into you. I wish I had been there first. I have loved you for years, you know. I saw all the beauty, I saw how cute you were, how sweet…
You have been damaged. You are wary now. You don’t trust anyone, including me. You say you’re fine but I can’t pay you a compliment without seeing your wheels turning. He got the purest form of you and crushed it. How could you let him do that? He was NOT worth it.
PLEASE stay away from him. I know we’ve talked about this and you still miss him but, for petes sake… Don’t let him do it to you again. He will. I PROMISE. Delete him from your life and make this process easier.
UGH. I still love you. You need time to heal and I get that. I just hope that I have the balls to tell you how I feel when you’re ready to hear it. In the meantime I will continue to just hold your hand through this. Metaphorically speaking…
All my love,