With all of the reasons I have for you being on my shit list and me just straight up not liking you at all anymore, I forgot the one reason that I told myself I need to always be grateful to you for.
You see, you were my first ‘kind of sort of basically boyfriend’. We spent a lot of time together. And when we weren’t together we were texting, talking on the phone, or skyping. We definitely had a thing, and everyone knew it. I’ve never made out with a guy as much as I made out with you.
I am extremely hard to please, and extremely picky when it comes to guys. Hence you being my first kind of ‘boyfriend’ at the age of 18. Very stupid girl of me, I honestly thought there was a possibility I’d marry you…HAH! Joke of the century.
Anyways once you ended things I was very upset. I didn’t show it, but I was. You handled things terribly. And after that I started a list in my head of all the reasons why I really, really dislike you.
BUT while we had our thing, while I was strongly in like with you, I remembered something I told myself: “If this ‘relationship’ doesn’t work out, at least it taught me how to accept peoples flaws and move past them.” And I’m not kidding, I really do need to thank you for that.
I get turned off SO easily. You could blow your nose the wrong way and I’d be done. But with you, it wasn’t like that. Trust me, you did SO many disgusting things and said gross things that I should have been done with you before it even started. But my liking for you overtook my old trait of being so judgmental. For that, I thank you.
Now, for my next REAL boyfriend, hopefully the MAN I will marry, I will be able to love him for who he is, imperfections and all. Thank you douchebag, for inadvertently teaching me that. I guess now I don’t dislike you as much as I did before…