Dear first love,
How do I look at you and say “you’re too perfect?” How can I make you understand? My heart isn’t there, nor has it been in quite some time. There was a time when nothing in this world could distract me from thinking of you. You were a constant thought of joy in the back of my mind. But time ticked on, and I felt my heart burn out and the desire I felt burn as well. I tried I fought to bring it back, but in the back of my mind I knew I’d never feel the same. I think you feel the same, but are too blinded by your first love to realize. I can’t hurt you. I cannot let you down. We promised marriage, travel, babies and everything but that is just a fairytale. The sad thing is I still love you, but not enough. I realize you deserve someone who can love you with everything they have. You’re perfect in every meaning of the word. Absolutely flawless. I am flawed through and through. Please don’t hate me. Please know I love you. You may never understand what I have to do and why I have to do it. I just pray one day you will understand, that’s all I can hope for.
Your first heartbreak