I’ve never known what to say to you. Right now is no exception. So I guess I’ll make this simple and say everything I could never get out: I don’t care what they say about you. You’re one of the most wonderful people I’ve ever met. You make me so happy even though you don’t pay attention long enough to notice. I’m here if you ever need anything. You scare me so much because you make me want to feel again. I want to be close to you again, I want to take care of you. I adore you.
I quoted a song for you once.
“I don’t know how to tell him
No clue how to say
That the three seconds he smiles
Are the best part of my day.”
I never told you it was from a song I wrote for you and I never will because I can’t admit that I ever cared for you that much.