I am beginning to see that yes, we were in love. shit, we could still be but My actions and insecurities are what drove you away, not the lack of love. I refuse to ever make someone I love so deeply feel that way again. I’m sorry I didn’t know what I was doing and it hurt us both deeply. I hope one day we will meet again and I will be my best me then. who knows if our love will have another chance. All I know is you did what you could and so did I. Maybe timing is everything, not because it wasn’t real just because we needed to learn more about ourselves and our lives before intertwining them like we did. I’m glad I met you. I’m glad I got to see a man that I would love to have next to me. I just hope we didn’t screw it up too much that one day we could make it work. I’d like it to work but I see now I can only work on me and being understanding and compassionate. We all have our demons and we are all human and make plenty of mistakes. None of us really know if what we are doing is right until it’s done. So if I have learned anything it is to be understanding that the people you love dearly will, WILL hurt you but it is not because they don’t love you or care it is because they are learning and growing just like you and me. Sometimes it takes us messing up to see a different way….. Only then can we try and fix our mistakes and maybe it will be enough. That is what shows are true character.