I’m really tired of playing second fiddle to just about everyone.
I’m starting to wonder if I just distance myself from people automatically or if they just don’t let me in far enough to be important.
Always the friend called last minute,if at all
Always the safety net incase you can’t find somebody better
Always the “kind of person i’d marry” just not the person you bother to date
Always dependable,safe and there if you need them,but unneccesary the moment you feel better. back to being the people you can’t stop bitching about,but you’d prefer to hang out with without me,andinstead of me.
I really wonder if any of you notice how you treat me,I took it up with a couple of you and you made me feel like such a chump for caring at all about feeling so lonely in the crowds i’m in.
I wish I had the strength to leave you all,but of course i’d feel too guilty even if didn’t notice i’m gone.