• this is the first day of my life.

    by  • October 31, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 0 Comments

    you were my best friend for those two weeks. we sung along to “first day of my life” by bright eyes, and i knew right then that you were my best friend. i wanted things to stay like that between us, but you changed back to yourself. you even told me how you didn’t like that person you once were. how much you hated that person. and yet you’re going back on your old ways. i want to stay up till 4 am talking to you, listening to your stories, to your past, to your struggles. i want to be able to tell you anything and everything about me without having judgement from you. i miss you so much adam. so much. there isn’t a night when i don’t want to talk to you, about what? anything, just as long as i can talk to you. i have a problem with how i convey my feelings, but with you i feel like for once i can let go. i know i screwed up that one night, i know i did. and i’m not saying that we should forget about it because we shouldn’t. but i just want things to go back to how they were after that night. i know that i probably sound desperate, needy, but adam i love you. we hardly talk anymore and yet you know more about me than even my best friend does. i hope you see this and see how much i miss you. i just wish you were still the adam that i knew those two weeks this summer.
    love, your bright eyed girl.

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