My life is on hold and I am stuck.
I try and try and try but
nothing or always something.
No escape, no spark of light in sight.
I am stuck and everything
feels the same crappy over and over.
One way or another it always hits,
perfectly timed when I gathered enough
strength to fool myself into positivity.
Even with you I am stuck. Always
round and round and round it goes.
So predictable in it’s unpredictability
and never forward.
If nothing positive happens SOON?
I throw everything away and just run.
Exhausted & Tired, I don’t even seem to
wake up anymore.
I need to know that there is still life for me
somewhere, besides this 24/7 treadmill in my head.
I’m too old for this shit!