• Truth be told I miss you, and truth be told I’M LYING. ;)

    by  • October 19, 2011 • Letting Go • 7 Comments

    I love looking back at my old posts on here, the ones I wrote about you. The ones I wrote expressing how sad I was that you won’t talk to me, how I wanted nothing more than to be over you…lord knows you’re over having me in your life. I truthfully thought I would always feel that hole in my heart, where you were supposed to be.

    All the bad things you did to me, all the break downs you caused me, and I still wanted you in my life. I was ready to apologize to you, FOR NO REASON. I would have done anything you told me to do just so I could have you back in my life. You were well aware of that, and I hated that you knew I was such a pushover. You knew that no matter what you did or said to me, and no matter how I reacted, I’d always be the one crawling back to you. I didn’t know how to fix that about myself.

    Well, I have. I’m SO over you, you fucking asshole. I DO NOT need you in my life. And all it took for me to get to this point, was all the time you gave me. All the time you ignored me, and all the times you were just a straight up ass to me. You put me down again and again, made me feel like an idiot over and over. I finally hit my breaking point, and I’m DONE.

    Now when you talk to me, I randomly stop answering YOU. I give YOU short responses, I don’t acknowledge things that YOU tell me. The tables have turned. How does it feel? You have some terrible karma coming your way, let me tell you. I would say I’m sorry….but I’m so not.

    And to all the people I see on here posting things like I used to post, about desperately wanting to get over that person….I’m promising you it’ll come in time. And when it happens, you’ll think back and say, “What the fuck was I thinking? Why would I ever want that person to be a part of my life?” I was one of those people that thought I would NEVERRR finish having these terrible gut-wrenching feelings. When people said, time heals all, I thought, yeah right. But just be patient, it’ll happen. Hang in there<3

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    7 Responses to Truth be told I miss you, and truth be told I’M LYING. ;)

    1. Jenni
      October 19, 2011 at 11:54 pm

      Holy hell. This is AH-MAZING!! Thank you for putting exactly what I feel into words!




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    2. Former Doormat
      October 20, 2011 at 4:47 am

      Right ON!

      My sentiments exactly.

      Great post. Well-said.

      Thanks!




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    3. jenn
      October 20, 2011 at 6:26 am

      Yeah! Awesome. I’m in between the two stages right now, and I’m sooooo glad to read what u wrote! I can completely relate to how you used to feel…so hopefully soon I will be where u are now soon! Thanks for posting!




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    4. nia
      October 20, 2011 at 6:30 am

      Love it! Thank u!




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    5. Alexis
      October 20, 2011 at 8:07 am

      🙂




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    6. Shelbi
      October 20, 2011 at 2:10 pm

      I love this!! Definitely how i’m feeling!




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    7. Manda
      October 20, 2011 at 6:31 pm

      Love this!
      I’m in that “I hate you but I still miss you even though I won’t admit it to myself” stage.
      Looking onward towards the future! :0D




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