Dear mine.

That is my nickname for you. It is stupid I know, but anyways.. I am without a doubt in love with you. I tried to deny it for 3 years now, but this is my love going out to you. In the past I did not want this feeling to go away I loved it, it was like a high for me, but now I am realizing how unhealthy this really is considering that you are a straight female that is ** years older than me I am also a female. I know completely disgusting I am disgusted by it too.. Just there is no denying this emotion that I have for you. You will never know, though I’m thinking you must suspect something out of the ordinary with me towards you, because frankly I am fed up with shunning you trying to hide this. The truth is though that it would be helpful if you like.. did something hurtful so that I could finally let you go and stop wishing for you attention every chance I get. LET ME LET YOU GO. of coarse you don’t know the tortures you have put me though the cutting, eating issues, and sometimes pure madness. I second guess that though since your so abnormal yourself I just have this electron sized hope that drives me trough or should I say forces me through this madnessMADNESS. I can’t do it any more I need to end this, somehow someway it. has. to. end.