Dear J, The reason why I haven’t gotten with any guys in college is because my mind is so wrapped around you. I cannot express the amount of times I’ve compared other guys to you. And every time you win. Every time I get close to choosing whether or not I should got through with
Read more →My first love after waiting for 25 years. It was picture perfect. My first kiss, my first time being loved in return, my first time in a relationship. Here I am a few years later wondering where it all went wrong. How could something so perfect become the most terrible 3.5 years of my life?
Read more →everyone wants to be loved, wants to be validated, in some way. I can’t say I’m not like everyone else in that regard. but my heart is divided into pieces, almost like everyone I’ve ever been with has a piece of me locked up somewhere. and I feel like I’m running out of love to
Read more →i just realized: you never even said “Happy Valentine’s Day.” i don’t care that you were halfway across the planet. that just can’t be justification anymore… you used your distance as an excuse. your being gone hurt me enough in the first place, but the fact that you used it to be lazy in our
Read more →Eight months ago, almost to the day, we spoke to each other for the first time. We knew each other, we went to the same school, but you were five years ahead of me so we were never around each other or even the same people… until that night. You happened to be at some
Read more →I’m sick of the guilty feeling. the guy wrenching feeling i get at that time of day when i know you’re gonna text me and when i finally see your name on my phone come up. we aren’t as close as we used to be. it kills me to see how far i’ve come and
Read more →Heh, I’ve never been good at expressing myself, but here goes. I miss you, you know that? This summer, all the nights we’ve spent talking for hours at a time. I miss that. I think that’s the reason I’ve been so down lately… I haven’t held a decent conversation with you for awhile now. You’re
Read more →You’re QUITE the gentleman, aren’t you? So chivalrous and kind and just an old-fashioned lover boy, aren’t you? I should have known all you were doing was trying to sweet talk your way into my pants. I hate that I didn’t see through your bullshit but I hope the others do. P.S. Yeah, I know
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