So, doing this seemed to have freed you… perhaps it will do the same for me.
We’ve been broken up for almost 2 months, but in reality I haven’t seem you in nearly 4. We’ve stated talking recently and every time I see you on skype it’s like I can see ‘us’ all over again. My maturity forces me to recognize that you don’t reciprocate the feelings.
It seems like you’re always trying to poke a fight, as though you desire to justify your actions by seeing me as a horrible man, when the truth is I’m the best you’ve ever had. Now, I know that sounds cocky… but you know it’s the truth.
You used your puppy dog eyes to get what you wanted, but you never needed to. Money never mattered to me, and simply providing everything you wanted is all I desired. Do you not remember the home we’d built together?
When we ended it, I fought for nothing and I had to deal with everything. I packed up everything that was yours, mine and ours. I paid for and relocated your (including everything in the house) stuff to a storage unit. Sometimes I wish I’d fought for some of those things… but they’d only remind me of what feels like a lie now.
It wasn’t until you that love songs has their color, and now all those songs of break up.
You were the love of my life, and for as shit as you treated me from time to time, I know i’d still want you back. When you left we were talking about marriage, but you changed your mind.
….and because this in anonymous, I will tell you what I believe really happened. And why I feel so much pain.
You forgot who we are. You’re living an alternate reality. And what I was afraid would happen while you were away did. For of course you are the most beautiful girl I’ve ever set my eyes on, so why wouldn’t every guy want more. Do I think you ever cheated on me? I’d say no, but to be honest I am finding out I know who you are less and less…. to the same extent that you’re finding out you have no idea who you are either.
I think you lied to me when I questioned you about those two guys… well when I know in a few short weeks after ending it you’re seeing one of them… ya…
You used to claim that sex meant something to us, and how sweet it was to make love with you, but now you just give it away like you’re worth nothing…. it’s not true… You’re worth the world!
My heart’s broken, and I don’t know how to move on…. maybe you need to stop worrying about hurting the guy your seeing now and realize that it tends to be the way you work.
I know you didn’t have a great father, I know your past is filled with things that no one person should ever have to go through. Please find yourself and realize that they have not defined you. That there are Men, like me, who can truly show you how a woman should be cared for.
Do not settle, do not end up with something less than you deserve.
And do not allow you’re definition of ‘deserve’ define what you receive….
For far greater than you can imagine is the life that is destined for you, whether you believe it or not.
From the boy who always wanted to take your breath away, but never meant to suffocate you…