• Archive for September 4th, 2011

    Things I can’t say to you

    by  • September 4, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Soulmate • 0 Comments

    Dear You, I don’t understand us. I feel like I’m in limbo with you. You were hurt so much by your past that you’ve built what sometimes feels like an insurmountable wall around yourself. Each time I feel like we’re making progress on breaking through it, you freak yourself out and pull back into your

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    I’m sorry

    by  • September 4, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Forgiveness • 0 Comments

    Recently i have just not been able to keep you off my mind, where every moment is all about you. Some may refer it as crazy stupid love, but its not that simple. I’ve had countless dreams with you in them where everything was just perfect and tranquil. That day we skyped was the first

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    To Someone Who Cares

    by  • September 4, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 6 Comments

    i’m not sure how i got to this state of mind. i’m just sad. yes i have moments where i smile or laugh…though the laugh hasn’t been real for some time. I feel lost and broken. You know moving shouldn’t be a big deal right…that is really what i thought even though i wasn’t showing

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    To moving on

    by  • September 4, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 2 Comments

    I think about you all the time. I wish you were holding me or just laughing with me or staring me down with some unreadable expression or smiling from ear to ear or yelling at me or swapping secrets or just hanging around… I miss you. I still believe that you’re the love of my

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    by  • September 4, 2011 • Betrayal • 0 Comments

    Panama Man, I masturbated today. And i thought of you when i climaxed. And i broke down. I cried harder than i’ve cried in a long time. Wanna know why? Because i can’t help but picture you when i climax. And it sickens me. I hate you. I loved you, i loved you with all

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    by  • September 4, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, God • 3 Comments

    So God, By “send me a sign” did you respond with me simultaneously seeing a wedding dress and two of my spirit animals (dragonflies) mating inside the store window while I got a text from a certain guy and “love at a coffee shop” came on my ipod? Because that was freaky. Sincerely, Me

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