• Accidents

    by  • September 3, 2011 • Relief • 2 Comments

    I accidentally sent a letter I started to post here.

    Before this momentous occasion, I was sour. I felt like crying.

    Post-occasion, when it was impossible to take back the tap of the enter button that sent the partially unfinished letter, I was completely terrified. “Oh shit!” I thought.

    And then I thought about that person getting the notification that they had a new message, seeing it was me and the first few words, and then maybe dropping whatever they were doing to find a quiet place to read it.

    And I thought about how it felt to no longer be in control of them, to know that my words were now also theirs. I thought about how it felt to know that they would read, understand them, and have strong feelings about them.

    It feels fucking AWESOME.

    And now that person knows that I love them.

    2 Responses to Accidents

    1. dan
      September 4, 2011 at 8:59 am

      This is awesome – I love this perspective. I hope it carries with you (and I) as long as possible.

      Hope springs eternal.

    2. unrequitedtoo
      April 25, 2012 at 3:31 am

      o.k. that’s amazing..I love how you went from “oh sh*t” I sent it to wow, I’m so glad I sent it.. very inspiring. So what happened? What did that person say or write back? I so hope it was what you wanted to hear, but either way, now you will know. Thank you for making me smile with your courage and happiness…

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