Today was the day we decided to split ways. I knew it was coming for so long but that didn’t make much of a difference. It hurt like hell and it was the hardest thing I ever had to do to turn my back and walk away from you. We decided that the long distance was going to be too much for you and we would follow our own paths. After that I didn’t want to waste time. We had sex and I don’t regret it. I didn’t have anything that I could have said to you that would have made a difference in this outcome. And yet I still feel like I should have tried harder. I wish you would have just said everything that was going through your mind. But more than anything I want to have you back in my arms. The final parting was the worst thing that you could have possibly done to me. You said that maybe one day we could get back together, maybe after you go to a closer school or maybe after I graduate college. Giving me some small shred of hope was the worst possible punishment because I will never be able to let go of it. I will never be able to let go of you and that is what hurts.