• Compartmentalized away…

    by  • July 29, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Trust • 3 Comments

    It’s not about where you are! It’s about lying wanting to MAKE me feel a certain way.

    There were only 2 expectations, remember? JUST 2! I had given up on one to ease your mind but you took the second away from me. Honesty…

    Than again, everything is a lie anyway so where is the difference, right?

    YOUR happiness is important to me! DOES this make you happy, ARE you happy?

    That’s all it matters.

    ‘Yours’ always,

    3 Responses to Compartmentalized away…

    1. fsas
      July 29, 2011 at 9:55 pm

      Dont know you this is for…but for myself…I. am waiting for happiness to kick in. It’s not.

    2. jljk
      July 30, 2011 at 12:51 am

      I wish this was the person I wish it was. There was this moment where someone says, we all makes choices in this world, followed by I can come see you at your home…where are you going? That was a fourteen hour drive. I wish I would have had the balls to find it in me to just get through it and find out what happened after my whole world fell apart. I just didn’t have it in me. I don’t. I can say I am not happy. I am really not happy. I hate this. I hate that I didn’t fight back. I was wrong with my wording..I should have said taken advantage of. I should have said it destoryed the person who wasn’t afraid of anything or if she was she ran right into it. I don’t like this. I don’t like this person. I hate this person who never stops crying, who holds knives in the hope that she can just end it, who looks up liqour stores and gun licenses. Who the hell is this? I worked hard for nearly 19 years just to have the chance to be happy, then I worked another ten to make myself into this fierce person that was called “more extordinary than you know.” I miss her. I miss being her. I would be happy anywhere being her. I wish this letter was for me from that person who wanted to drive 14 hours just to talk. That is someone who cared. That is the type of person I could be behind, if I were the girl who used to run fiercly into her fears, with a huge grin on her face.

    3. Author
      July 31, 2011 at 9:40 am

      I am the woman who is still running fiercly into and right over her fears. With a huge grin on her face, even if sometimes, it is a self cynical grin.
      Happiness can not be found in boxes, no matter how pretty and neat they appear. No regrets ever, our choices make our happiness. To both of you, I only hope you make the right choices for you and the other. There is no substitute for true love!

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