• 5 Years

    by  • July 29, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Confusion • 0 Comments

    Five Years. Five long years have passed, and still I am nowhere near figuring out how I feel about you. We have been through so much together; you’ve gone through relationship after relationship, and I’ve stood by, keeping my opinions and desires to myself. It has been painful to see you with someone and hear about you guys… but I’m too much a coward to tell you how I really feel. But the thing is, I don’t know how I really feel! I know that it makes me sad when you’re with someone… but sometimes when I feel like you are hinting that you want to be with me, I feel… almost disgusted. I really think there is something wrong with me. I’ve come to a conclusion. I am going to admit my feelings to you. I think I’m going to say the following; Okay, I’m going to be frank. I need to know if you, for a lack of a better word, like me. I have feelings that I’m really confused about, but if you liked me just as a friend, that would be fine. I almost prefer that! Because then I could get over you, or the idea of you, and get on with my life. I just wish that I could find someone like you… that isn’t you. I feel so comfortable with you, but since were so close and such good friends I feel that if we got together, things could get weird and then ever our friendship could be ruined. Which is the last thing I want. But, I’m reasonably sure that I really really really care for you, because whenever you talk about other girls, my heart feels like its going to fall out of my chest. So I just need you to help me get over you, and submit to my feelings so don’t feel like I’m going to cry after every time we hang out. Please, please please someone or something give me the courage to tell you how I feel!

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