How’s Heaven? Well, here on earth kinda sucks. I am so lost. Why do i feel so homesick all the time? I am having trouble finding myself in the midst of so much going on. I need to somehow figure out to be more wise. I don’t even know. I wish you were here to help me. I wish i could hear your voice. I get to the point where i feel so screwed up but i don’t want to see a counselor, or talk to anyone. I am so scared of being judged or annoying people. Why aren’t you here anymore? Couldn’t you have been the one to understand? I really just want you to be with me. You were here for so long, but not really long at all. I never knew what it was about you but you just knew what it’s like. You understood me. You let it be ok, to just be O.K. How were you so strong? Through everything? Dealing with cancer, dealing with mom, taking care of me, you never complained. Not once. I never heard you cry about pain from cancer or that mom was hurting your feelings. I feel so weak because i am worrying and upset about all this little stuff. A smart man once told me “don’t sweat the small stuff, and everything is a small thing.” Where do i go from here? Are you still with me? Come home..
your little sister