You’re leaving today, and if life goes your way, you will never come back.
I’m a mess, and have been a mess since leaving you on Sunday morning. I knew when I walked away that I would probably never see you again. It was just one of those gut feelings. You have no idea how hard I prayed that I was wrong, but I knew in my heart I wasn’t.
You know, I understand why you didn’t want a relationship. We barely know each other and long distance sucks. I get that. What the hell were you doing with me then? We weren’t having sex so it’s not like you were just using me to get some. It just makes no sense. I wanted to be your friend. Want to be your friend. I liked you enough not to pressure you or myself into something that just wouldn’t work. I wanted you in my life for the long haul, and if being friends is what got us there then so be it.
I hope you life is kind to you. I hope that you find someone you trust. I hope you learn to trust yourself. I hope you learn to like yourself. I really hope you learn to love yourself. And to forgive yourself. You are so hard on yourself, Marine. Did you know that you are one of the best men I’ve ever met? I hope you see that one day. I hope you will let someone love you the way you deserve to be loved. God, you deserve it so much. Unlike yourself, I hope you never go to into battle. I hope you live a very long life. I hope you save and preserve life, mostly your own.
Should you ever find yourself feeling alone and lonely, I PRAY that God puts my memory into your brain and all of the sudden you know that you’re not alone. I hope you remember some little Oklahoma girl that prays for you every single day. And Lieutenant? I really hope you can let your pride down, and ask me to be your friend again. We’ve known each other such little time, but I think that I’m going to miss you for the rest of my life.
Live a life less ordinary, Lieutenant.
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