• Broken

    by  • July 28, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 0 Comments

    Dear J,

    I meant it when I said it. I meant it with everything I had. I love you. I loved you from the very beginning. I knew I was falling for you when we were at the cabin that Christmas. It was inevitable. The night we stood on the bridge over the pond looking up at stars…I was completely wrapped up in you. I still am. Two years later, I am still completely in love with you. I know we aren’t together anymore and this has been the hardest six months of my life. I know that things got really messy with us but there hasn’t been a day that has gone by that I haven’t thought about you or wanted to call you and see how you are or text you just to say hi. I miss you. I don’t care what happened and I don’t care about the things that were said. I told you once that I can’t stay mad at you. It’s the truth. I’m not mad. I don’t hold anything against you because it wasn’t all you. I played a part in our falling out too. I just miss you and want more than anything to be with you. I have tried so hard to shake these feelings but I can’t. You are the first thing that I think of when I wake up in the morning and you are the last thing I think of when I go to sleep at night. I have this pain in my chest when I think of you. I know thats really cliché but its real. My heart really is broken. I can feel it aching. People always say that time is the only thing that can heal a broken heart…I just wish they were clear on how long it would take. You probably will never see this but I wish more than anything that you are happy with whatever you do. If we can’t be together that’s my ultimate wish. You deserve every bit of happiness that you can get. I love you and miss you more than you know.


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