• still missing you

    by  • July 27, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 0 Comments

    I miss you every day. Sometimes I just curl up in a little ball and squeeze my eyes shut and remember the last time we were together, and the last time I hugged you. I can’t believe that you are half way around the world and there is no guarantee that I will ever see you again. It shocks me to think that I feel like I won’t enjoy being with anyone else for a long, long time, even though I don’t even know if I will ever see you again. That tiny hope that I might see you in a year and a half almost makes me want to wait. It makes me think that maybe by then something will change and I will be able to be with you forever. You gave me hope this year, when I felt like nobody knew me and nobody understood me. When I was struggling at home I could always remind myself that you would be at school waiting for me the next day, speaking to me in your broken english and making sure I didn’t have to walk home by myself. You will never be able to understand how much i appreciate everything you did for me this year, and how much it sucks that I don’t know what the future holds in store for us, if anything. You were the best friend I could have asked for, and those few times that we were more than friends just made me realize how much you mean to me. But now I’m back home, on another continent that feels worlds away, and all I want is you. Thanks a lot for making me love you. For making me smile and holding me when I needed it most and just caring when it seemed like nobody else did. Thanks for everything. I love you, and I will do whatever I can to see you again someday.

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