• Saying Goodbye

    by  • July 26, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Goodbye • 1 Comment

    Dear E,

    I wish you could see how much I need you. How when I hang out with my friends I wonder if they’re thinking about you too. How when I’m alone at night I look up at my window and wonder if you’re looking at the same star in that same sky.

    But lately you’ve been so far apart from me. Why can’t you see that I love you? Are things going to get better or are you going to continue to think about us but not do a damn thing? I want you to be mine again. I want to see the nasty, jealous stares of the other girls in the hallway and know that they know they can’t have you.

    I miss Logan too. I know he was your best friend and I know you loved him more than anyone else. But you have to remember that I was there. Since the sixth grade all three of us were known as the three amigos. Don’t you remember?

    I know you’re hurting but how long are you going to be like this? Sure, you haven’t dated anyone else since we broke up but I miss you. Logan was my best friend too. I wish I could have stopped this from happening but a part of me is glad that it did so I could see how you would be.

    Leaving me was all too easy for you. But I won’t let it happen again. I won’t rely on you so much that I can’t function when you’re gone. We’re splitting apart more and more every day. Don’t worry. I still love you. A part of my heart will always belong to you…but that part was done waiting for you a long time ago.

    I love you. But that’s the reason I have to do this. I have to say goodbye. Because I love you. This isn’t healthy. I can see the way you hurt when you look at me. I know you see Logan when you look at me. That isn’t a bad thing, but it isn’t good for you. You need a clean slate.

    This is the hardest thing I have ever done. We’re always going to be us. You and me. But until you learn to look over the past and live in the now. With me. We’re going to have to learn to be apart.

    I promise I will always love a part of you But that part died and was buried with Logan. I know it now. And I’m sorry it’s taken so long but I hope you find happiness again with someone else. Even though you said you never would it’s time to say goodbye.


    One Response to Saying Goodbye

    1. Feelingyourpain
      July 26, 2011 at 8:18 pm

      I know what it is like to lose a loved one and have everyone else change because of it. I’m sorry this had to happen but I wish nothing but the best of luck to you.

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