• Don’t You Remember?

    by  • July 26, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 1 Comment

    I still remember a time when it didn’t take an effort to talk to you. When everything that you did filled me something positive, be it joy or warmth or love or laughter. When I felt so secure in your love that I didn’t go to fucked up lengths to get it. When I didn’t go so far in search of it that I wandered out of your affections and beat on the door to get back in.

    I remember a time when life wasn’t this obstacle course to get through alone, but an adventure to take -with you-.

    I remember when we sickened our friends with our adorakableness togetherness. Now I just use it as a chance to passive-aggressively trash you.

    ….I hate to think that everything I remember is over and done and gone and dust in the wind. All those mornings I woke up with you next to and pushed my head between your arms, cheek against your chest. All the goofy jokes and spontaneous mini-adventures that made my life a big adventure. Do you remember a time when it didn’t matter how tired we were, we’d still keep each other up talking, murmuring, mumbling in the dark? Moving close, touching, rubbing, kissing, making love (and life)…

    I know you still love me. I know I don’t deserve you. I know I haven’t for a long time. I know I’ve spat in your face, hit you while you’re down, taken advantage of you, and treated you like I hated you. I know, I know, I know.


    One Response to Don’t You Remember?

    1. Lissa
      July 26, 2011 at 1:18 pm

      I know exactly how you feel, hun, EXACTLY! :/

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