I don’t tell people when i am upset or sad or feeling alone, you know this. but today is one of those days where nothing is working and i feel alone and like i am no longer needed in this world. I reached out to you and told you i felt alone and depressed and didn’t know what to do to make it better. I actually reached out. But you slammed the door in my face. I just want someone to care but you told me you didn’t have time for drama today and to text someone else. You are my mother, you are supposed to make me feel like someone, anyone actually wants me to be here but now i sit here alone feeling more depressed than i was before i texted you crying wishing i didn’t exist wondering why i haven’t just downed a bottle of pills or driven out in front of a semi now I feel more alone than ever.