• M.J.

    by  • July 23, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Lost Love • 0 Comments

    I loved you. I do love you. I will always love you. Your smile, your cheeks, your laugh. Days can be spent staring into your beautiful, deep brown eyes. Months could be spent holding you in my arms. Years could be spent holding your hand. More than anything, you wanted my love, trust, and honesty, and for a while you fully had it. We had our fights, like any other couple, but we always loved each other more than ourselves. After over a year, we lost it. We drifted, argued, yelled, cried. Nothing was ever enough anymore. I wish I had done things differently. Was I wrong for upholding other responsibilities? No. Or at least I’d like to think so. But did I handle it terribly? Absolutely. I would change it if I ever could, but I don’t think it would ever be the same. I don’t think you could trust or love me again. I disappointed you. I pushed you away, even though we needed each other. I should have loved you better. I should have seen it. You probably think I’m terrible, but I’m only human. You know as well as anyone that people make mistakes. I just wish you’d forgive me. I wish you’d love me again, because I need you. It took you no time to get over me and find someone else. I wasted you. I underappreciated your love. I just want to fix us because I hate being friend-zoned again when we both know we want more. We can never replace each other. Even though I’m leaving soon, you know you’ll miss me and feel helpless and sad. I don’t want to leave you to that. I don’t want it to take me leaving for you to recognize what’s gone. I knew since the moment I saw you that you would be the one I would spend the rest of my life with. I hope that girl still exists. Red needs Bloo to keep him balanced and stable, and vice versa, and no one else can do that. Please come back. Mahal kita, Bloo.
    -Red

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