• Guilt

    by  • July 23, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Karma • 0 Comments

    I’m sorry.
    I’m an idiot.
    I should have started the test sooner so I didn’t have to randomly fill in the bubbles for the section i forgot to do. I’m really a good person and I never would have done it intentionally to get out of doing work. I just freaked out when i was going through the test after transferring the answers and i saw that a whole section was blank. I just panicked. I froze and before I knew it I was filling in random answers. I have not been able to relax these past few days just obsessing over how stupid I am. It feels like a bad dream and i would give a lot to wake up. I still cannot believe i did it and i just cannot wait until our sessions are over so i can forget about you and the whole thing. I guess thats what i get for waiting until the end to transfer my answers instead of just doing it for each section or just doing it the normal way i have done EVERY SINGLE TEST OF MY LIFE. Maybe some unseen force will intervene here and the test will get lost or will not be read by the machine or anything. But that probably won’t happen. I still have no idea what I’m going to say to you when i see. I truly wish this were just a nightmare. I hate lying more than anything. Maybe I just hate disappointing people more than anything. I need to stop caring so much what people think of me. No one needs to be perfect. i just wish I were I little closer.

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