• Tears Running Dry

    by  • July 22, 2011 • * Safe for Work *, Fear • 0 Comments

    Baby baby baby. You’re supposed to be my best friend, my love, my everything. How can you not tell how unhappy I am? Or do you just not care to see it anymore? I have cried almost everyday the past few weeks, sometimes lying right next to you at night. I’m running out of time, my tears are starting to run dry. I can’t do this to myself anymore, I refuse to. You keep telling me how insecure I have become yet you don’t realize your constant wandering eyes don’t help. I know what you do when I am not around and I know what you say when I am not there to hear. You can tell me every guy in the world talks with a huge ego and always looks around but that doesn’t help one bit – have you ever thought about how that makes me feel? Or when you constantly go out without me I used to sit at home and stay up all night over thinking and wondering what was going on, who you were dancing on, talking to, and everything in between. You don’t understand how it feels to sit at home and feel lost and forgotten about, unloved and unwanted. Some days I feel like I’m not good enough for you even though I know I am a pretty girl and I can find someone else if need be – but I don’t want that, I want you. We used to be so close, practically inseparable – but some days I feel like I’m just one of your friends, nothing special. I need you to feel that spark that was there before, I need you to miss me when I’m not around, I need you to remind me how much you love me some days, I need you to be there. I know deep down nothing has changed and I am probably just freaking myself out over nothing but I don’t like the comfortableness between us from time to time. I don’t want to give up even when I feel like you’re pushing me away. But most of all I don’t want you to forget about me, I don’t want you to stop loving me like you used to.

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